One of Those Days

Today has been one of those days. Where everything seemed to be going wrong. On a good note I had a nice dinner with my husband and children. I am also very excited about a night with my girl friends. It will be tons of fun. I hate that I always seem to be down at the end of the week. I need to not worry about things I can not control. I am very happy that I have three wonderful children, and a loving husband. I am very thankful to have a nice house and friends that care about me. I need to stop building these walls up around myself. I start to let them down and become relaxed and boom they start building back up out of no where. I need to learn to trust more and not be so guarded. I love going out and hanging with friends it is the best times. Unfortunately I find myself feeling down when I am stuck at home with nothing to do. I would think that raising three children and going to school full time would be enough to keep me busy. I wish I just had some help in realizing that the walls are not needed. I have to stop letting past situations get in the way of new and present friendships. I need to more forward I do not seem to know how though. Just some random thoughts that are ever present in my irrational/rational mind.