Friday, September 17, 2010

One of Those Days

Today has been one of those days. Where everything seemed to be going wrong. On a good note I had a nice dinner with my husband and children. I am also very excited about a night with my girl friends. It will be tons of fun. I hate that I always seem to be down at the end of the week. I need to not worry about things I can not control. I am very happy that I have three wonderful children, and a loving husband. I am very thankful to have a nice house and friends that care about me. I need to stop building these walls up around myself. I start to let them down and become relaxed and boom they start building back up out of no where. I need to learn to trust more and not be so guarded. I love going out and hanging with friends it is the best times. Unfortunately I find myself feeling down when I am stuck at home with nothing to do. I would think that raising three children and going to school full time would be enough to keep me busy. I wish I just had some help in realizing that the walls are not needed. I have to stop letting past situations get in the way of new and present friendships. I need to more forward I do not seem to know how though. Just some random thoughts that are ever present in my irrational/rational mind.

1 comment:

  1. I think in some way we are all do this. Throughout life we all build up walls for one reason or another. I'll pray for you for ability to let the people who love you rip down those walls.